We have no structure anymore, just things that need to get done, eventually. I have zoom calls to be on, tasks to complete, research to do. He wants my attention. And food. So much food. But mostly my attention, my undivided, focused, enthusiastic attention. I just want sleep. And more coffee. And more sleep. I’m so tired all the time now.
CHECK YOUR PRIVILEGE: PART THREE
Welcome back. This is part three of a three part series on the question of ethical fitness business ownership and operation during the Coronavirus pandemic. You can read part one here, and part two here, if you haven’t already. Hi again. Thanks for seeing this thing through and getting to part three. It’s a lot, … Continue reading CHECK YOUR PRIVILEGE: PART THREE
CHECK YOUR PRIVILEGE: PART ONE
Dear Fellow Fitness Business Owners, I see you. This is hard. You worked so hard to build something, maybe even from nothing, maybe not. Maybe you saw a need and had a skill that could fill it. Maybe you decided people agreed that you, specifically you, should fill this need. Or maybe you just wanted … Continue reading CHECK YOUR PRIVILEGE: PART ONE
What Even Is This?
Plan and control- fight, control and avoid- flight, or confusion- freeze. That’s it. That’s where I live, every day. Over, and over, and over. That, and the dishes. I haven’t been able to get to a place of grounded acceptance. I haven’t been able to stay present for more than a few minutes. I haven’t been able to hold my shit together for so much as a half a day. I’m working to be okay with that part first, before I move on to actually trying to be okay.
I hope they are able to look back, look now, and look later, and know that they are enough just as they are. What I hope to teach them, instead, is to pivot without attachment, to regulate their own emotions, and to empower them to be them.
GO SOFTLY NOW
And that thing leads me to another good thing, and another, and another. I do work hard, I do sweat, I do move my body in ways that challenge me, but I do it on my terms, for my purposes, and because it feels good to ME. I choose to create momentum that builds a pathway to movement for and with my body because I deserve to FEEL as amazing as I already am.