I hope they are able to look back, look now, and look later, and know that they are enough just as they are. What I hope to teach them, instead, is to pivot without attachment, to regulate their own emotions, and to empower them to be them.
But I can’t keep showing up for everyone else when I’m not showing up for myself. I can’t. I physically cannot. I emotionally cannot. I mentally cannot. I have got to RELENTLESSLY ATTEND TO MY OWN SELF CARE.
I had lots of topics to write about in my head early today. Lots of emotions. Lots of processing. Lost of word vomit I wanted to spew into my whitespace. I had started several pieces, made some notes, generated some sentences and gathered my thoughts. I went to lead my College classes this afternoon, prepared to … Continue reading UNION
All week last week I was feeling anxious. Unstill. Struggling to stay in the moment, any moment. I let my classes out early. I rushed everywhere and was still late. I wore a watch, and checked it, even during yoga, which I left. . . early. Twice. I checked the time even when assisting. I … Continue reading BE HERE NOW