Maybe this time I’ll build the right house, on the right location, with the right tools, and for the right reasons, and the house will stand and I will still want to live in it. Or maybe I won’t.
I want to talk to you about this time I felt stuck. Really stuck. Really down. Really not myself. Depressed. I would actually classify this thing that happened, that I’m coming out of, as depressed. And that is scary as fuck. I have lots of reasons why it might have happened. Significant health issues, insomnia, … Continue reading THE SOUND OF SILENCE
Yesterday, Sunday, I found out that my son had his first cub scouts meeting on Wednesday. Like, five days ago Wednesday. And I just found out about it. FUCK. Now, I know I’m busy, and I sometimes forget things, like, say, my own lunch, but I don’t forget shit like my son’s first cub scout meeting. … Continue reading MAMA DON’T (SHARE)
It’s finally the Monday After (Christmas). My house is quiet while I work, checking emails, surveying the results of an intense five weeks, identifying what’s now ahead. My kids are gone to their dad’s for the week, my husband is lost down an NPR rabbit hole and I’ve already put away and deep cleaned my way … Continue reading TOWARDS THE SUN
Softness. I’ve spent the better part of this year seeking softness, learning how I can move more gently, speak with more love, offer myself and others compassion and explore exactly what being a yes means to me. And, at the same time, I’ve been moving from a place of real, not simply “nice.” Yes, these … Continue reading GET REAL
Charter schools, ten year old cars, overdue bills, a bustling life in the middle of the city, a network of personal and professional contacts that extends across nearly every state and a few continents, a daily yoga practice, a partner that both humbles and ignites me, writing as a profession and not just therapy, allowing … Continue reading SOMEONE THAT I USED TO KNOW
As I write this, it’s now after 10pm. I’m up, working on work projects, sitting on the couch next to my boyfriend while he works on his work projects. In between, in the pause, we’re sipping wine and working on OUR project. It’s late. We’re tired. And happy. This is becoming a regular thing, the … Continue reading LIKE REAL PEOPLE DO
When I finished my first Yoga Teacher Training I recieved a bracelet infused by my teacher with a metaphorical “Chocolate Chip Cookie,” I was confused by this, to say the least. My clarification came as “well, you’re hard on the outside, but warm and gooey on the inside.” This pissed me off. A lot. I did not … Continue reading I DID IT ALL FOR THE COOKIE?
So, last week I gave something up (anger) to let something in (love). It was awesome. It is awesome still. I feel good, very good, about where I’m at. I’m full. I’m happy. Motivated. Making progress. Redefining my life, again. I’m enjoying my freedom and expansion. I like this space I’m in right now. However, … Continue reading LOVE ME HARDER
Guess who’s back, back again? Bonus points if you can spout the next lines. Super bonus points if you can name that artist. Super super bonus points if you can change the lyrics to match my story. . . I’ll give you a hint for the theme, It’s pretty fucking happy. I’m back from Africa … Continue reading THIS LITTLE LIGHT OF MINE