NO. TIRED. I AM FUCKING EXHAUSTED AS FUCK.
No, not Santa stories. Not Hanukkah stories. Not even family blooper stories, although all of those do get shared as well. Instead, it’s the stories I tell myself...
And, I’ve been holding onto this premise that there is some magical exception to the rule, and maybe I could be it. I suppose I believed that if I tried enough varieties of shit, put my time into testing them out and paid my dues, then I’d get to live the rest of my life basically shit free.
What if the thing, the really great thing that I do, the thing that that girl saw in me? What if it’s just, BEING ME?
So last Monday, a week ago, I had surgery to repair an umbilical hernia I’ve been ignoring for the last eight years. Per usual, I thought it would be no big deal. 60 minute surgery, home before noon, likely working again by 1pm. Only, to no one’s surprise but mine, that’s not exactly how it … Continue reading CORE
Colleague: “So, do you like, think that thinking positive things changes your like, energy? And that negative energy changes it too? Like, does it really matter? Do your thoughts actually change your. . . reality?” Me: “YES! EXACTLY YES. YES. YES. YES!” This was about three-quarters of the way through a really great conversation about … Continue reading TURN THE LIGHTS ON
Burned turkey, raw turkey, turkey jerky, turkey in the snow, turkey on the beach, turkey from the store, turkey in Nebraska, and Hawaii.Turkey on a hilltop, turkey in a valley, turkey with my family, and turkey with my fRamily. Turkey for five, turkey for thirty-five, turkey in silence, turkey in jest, turkey served by me, … Continue reading Make a Mess
As I write this, it’s now after 10pm. I’m up, working on work projects, sitting on the couch next to my boyfriend while he works on his work projects. In between, in the pause, we’re sipping wine and working on OUR project. It’s late. We’re tired. And happy. This is becoming a regular thing, the … Continue reading LIKE REAL PEOPLE DO
When I finished my first Yoga Teacher Training I recieved a bracelet infused by my teacher with a metaphorical “Chocolate Chip Cookie,” I was confused by this, to say the least. My clarification came as “well, you’re hard on the outside, but warm and gooey on the inside.” This pissed me off. A lot. I did not … Continue reading I DID IT ALL FOR THE COOKIE?
So I’m on a(nother) trip this weekend, at a(nother) training, getting (even more) connected to myself, my thoughts, my actions, my habits, and who I really am. I just can’t get enough of this shit— it’s awesome. The topic of this conference, in keeping with my summer tour-de-self vibe, is "Getting To Know Yourself: The Truth Will … Continue reading WHAT I AM